Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Random Conversation.

This time about music and concerts...


ηι¢нσℓαš says:
would love to see justin come :D

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
u and the whole female population of malaysia la

ηι¢нσℓαš says:
wah u gonna see 90% of msian hottest chicks in the concert too

ηι¢нσℓαš says:
so win win situation :D

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
best :D

ηι¢нσℓαš says:
hahaehhea

ηι¢нσℓαš says:
so we just pray for him to come down

ηι¢нσℓαš says:
during concert we get numbers

ηι¢нσℓαš says:
hahahehehae

ηι¢нσℓαš says:
fuck clubbing

ηι¢нσℓαš says:
213192837 times not once dapat

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
concerts ftw~! :D

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
i'll buy u a justin shirt and make sure u wear it if he ever comes

ηι¢нσℓαš says:
lol

ηι¢нσℓαš says:
ew!

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
haha

Random Conversation.

Discussing the PSP and other gaming consoles...


ηι¢нσℓαš says:
rm670 and the boss gonna dl free games

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
swt

ηι¢нσℓαš says:
lol

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
what else can u get?

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
like in a package

ηι¢нσℓαš says:
dunno le

ηι¢нσℓαš says:
cuz my mom knows the 'wholeseller' of msia

ηι¢нσℓαš says:
thats how i got my console for cheap too

ηι¢нσℓαš says:
i got my 360 2 months after it got out for 1.5k lol (market price about 2.2k at the time)

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
i luv ure mom!

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
she's like the yellow pages man

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
she knows like, everyone

ηι¢нσℓαš says:
lol

ηι¢нσℓαš says:
yeah

ηι¢нσℓαš says:
good good shit

It May Be Dark...

I don't know how long I sat there, I don't know how many smokes I had. I recall sometime in the early morning I just had to go out and get more smokes and went back home after. For a very long time it just seemed like I was constantly staring in to the darkness that engulfed my mind. And before I knew it the sun was up. Another sleepless night, another night of unnecessary pondering.

How the words tore at me at first, how many times I thought of just turning around and walking away from it all. Irrational thinking surely? At that time it certainly didn't seem like it. I've had enough of disappointment for many many years until the usual line would be 'I'm not looking for one'. Broken hearted some would say? Perhaps, but I grew numb to it over time. Or so I thought...

But you came along and changed all that. For a while you helped me leave the dark corner in which I had imprisoned myself for so long. Unshackled me from the chains which held me. No longer thrall to my own past fears. But I let those fears back in, and how fast they consumed me like locust to a harvest. How fast they overcame me like a pack of hyenas over an injured animal. How they laughed as they toyed with my mind. Poisoning it with memories long buried and forgotten.

I was torn, but you opened my eyes. Though they offered no comfort and pierced right into me, your words made me come to realise that I've been living in shadows. That I unconsciously plot my own downfall and lead myself to ruin. I have to break out from this prison which holds me. It may take a while, it may not. But that all depends on me really doesn't it?


Despair, doubt, suspicion...
Living in fear of the past robs us of the future.
Oh yes, it may be dark...
But beyond the clouds lies the sun.

And how I long to see it again...

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Free Coffee? :D

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
I just realised you owe me 4 meetings!

*Stephanie says:
Hahahaha shit!

*Stephanie says:
Yeah I didn't make it to 10.

*Stephanie says:
We contra.

*Stephanie says:
You owe me a book and coffee.

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
ONE meeting with you is worth like 10 books and 15 coffee's!

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
Since it's so hard to get hold of you!

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
So basically you owe me, lets see hmm...39 books and 59 coffees?

*Stephanie says:
Excuseeeeeeeeeeeeeee moi!!!

Urk! Shoes!

Bamboo Fuchsia :: pluie :: says:
I bought a new pair of shoes.

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
Urk!

Bamboo Fuchsia :: pluie :: says:
Will show them to you when I see you.

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
More shoes!

Bamboo Fuchsia :: pluie :: says:
I'm sure you will 'love' it.

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
I'm scared now.

Bamboo Fuchsia :: pluie :: says:
Neah...

Bamboo Fuchsia :: pluie :: says:
It's not a killer.

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
Just painful right?

Bamboo Fuchsia :: pluie :: says:
But I'm sure it will give a good smack on the cheek.

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
That's not very pleasant.

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
Do you deliberately buy these dangerous shoes just for me?

Bamboo Fuchsia :: pluie :: says:
I just love shoes.

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
That's not very reassuring okay...

Nic? Reading?

After what was definetly has been a lousy past few days of insomnia, gloom and horribly bad coughing, things are looking up.

Met up with Munster last night for supper and she was insistant on having coffee today and to go shopping. I think she just wants me to help carry her bags knowing how she tends to shop :p Seeing how she hardly ever seems to leave the city, how could I not obilge.

And tomorrow, coffee with Debbie. Yes Darling, I know we have heaps to catch up on. Load up on your stories and bring the notebook. Which reminds me...

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
Oh, and do me a small, small favour.

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
Ask Nic for my book.

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
It's been with him for like a month!

- [D] e B S t a ™ - says:
And what book is it?

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
Fantasy novel.

- [D] e B S t a ™ - says:
Okok. I'll ask him.

- [D] e B S t a ™ - says:
What book is that? Why suddenly Nick is reading?

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
Nic? Reading?

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
Those two words don't go together in the same sentence ha ha.

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
I left it in his car when we went to watch a movie a while back.

- [D] e B S t a ™ - says:
Sorry. I meant that Nick doesn't read.

- T ! M S t [o] N e - says:
Snow will fall in Malaysia before Nic takes up reading as a hobby.

- [D] e B S t a ™ - says:
Hehehehe Exactly!


Steph, you read me like a book. Debs, you're such a gem u know that! Thx ever so much babes :D

Monday, February 26, 2007

Desolate.

The garden was beautiful no longer,
For everything in it has died.
Dried flower blossoms once colourful,
Were now as dark as sorrow.
Their heads hung drooping,
From stems that were brown and withered.
And dead leaves that knew nothing but winter,
Lay in piles beneath a crumbling stone wall.

Up Against The Wind.

Day after day...
Seems like I push against the crowd
They just keep blocking out the sun
It seems since I was born
I've waited every blessed morning
Down on my luck
And up against the wind...

Don't you stop, don't you run, don't you hide...
You'll do fine, you'll be good, you'll get by...

Night after night...
Seems like I rage against the moon
But it don't ever light the dark, no...
I curse the falling rain
But it won't stop from my complaining
Down on my luck
And up against the wind...

Don't you stop, don't you run, don't you hide...
You'll do fine, you'll be good, you'll get by...


- Lori Perri.

One Last One To You.

I try to forget every time,
Try to forget every place,
All those savored kisses,
And each sweet embrace.

I remember all those words,
That I wish were strong & true,
And now I wait to see whats to come,
Moving on now without you.

I didn't think I was happy until that day,
With your smiles and laughter,
But all that seems lost now,
And so it's the end of this chapter...

I'd like to think I'm nobodies fool...
But I know you certainly made me yours.

Be Happy :)

Sunday, February 25, 2007

Lost?

Wandering around in the dark... Where's the light?

Saturday, February 17, 2007

Let's see now...

Dressing up in red? Check!

Collecting those silly red packets? Check!

Watching those fabulous lions dance? Check!


Yup Yup. It's Chinese New Year all right.


Best wishes of health and prosperity to my friends and their family :D

Thursday, February 15, 2007

sHOrT Kiddo.

Tim - So hot it isn't funny.

Nic - I know I'm hot. Thank you, thank you!

Tim - I meant the weather.

Nic - Lol.

Tim - But at least you got 3 letters right.

Nic - ?

Tim - sHOrT :D

Nic - I'm both :D

Silly AJ :D

As AJ and I searched for a place to have dinner in One Utama...


AJ - So where would you like to eat?

Tim - Hmm, let's try Chili's or TGIF?

AJ - Ok, sounds good. :)

AJ - Wow! The Waiting line in front of Chili's is so long :(

Tim - Tell you what, you walk up to the counter, smile and bat you're eyelids at the guy attending there and maybe he'll fall in love with you and give us a table.

AJ - Stupid! He'll most probably direct me to the toilet and say something like ' Miss, you can fix your contacts in there.'

Tim - :D

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

AJ Saves The Day?

AJ has just asked me out for dinner because UR is in Belgium. Guess it'll be good to have her company. Maybe that's what I need. Get out and hang out with friends to get my mind off things. If it fails, oh well...

Random Entry...

I've been unusually cranky for the past few days and it's annoying. Sad part is that there's no one, NO ONE I feel, I can confide in this matter and it has me worried sick. I don't think I've ever been in a worse situation and honestly, it's fucked up. Hopefully the matter will be resolved soon and I can put this shit behind me. But until then, I'm pretty much fucked.

I was actually content to just stay home today on finish up on a book I'm reading when Violence decided to call me up for a drink while she was in Bangsar. We decided to go for coffee and just chill and chat. I guess I wasn't much good company as problems lingered in the back of my mind. Still, I don't think I gave away too much of my recent mood. I could be wrong, but what does it really matter at this time.

Valentine's Day. I don't really care much for it and frankly I can't be bothered for the occasion. Probably the last time I ever did anything that was meaningful for anyone was when I was 17. Since then I have viewed Valentine's as a waste of time and money. I don't see the purpose of having a selected day where one decides to celebrate love and affection just because of the occasion. What's wrong with the rest of the year? For those who wished me, thanks. I appreciate the wishes, but to me it's just another day.

Probably the only good thing I can think of this day is that it's the birthdays of my good and hideously overweight friend 'Santa' Kel, and Theo. Kel, you have always been a good friend for many years even if at one point, you kept waking me up at 7am to loan 2 ringgit to lake the LRT to work. But rest assured, you'll be my good friend for many more years to come.

14th Feb.



Cupid Mistake @ Perry Bible.

Happy Valentine's peeps.

Monday, February 05, 2007

And Later In The Conversation...

She - ARRGHH! TIMMMMM!!!

She - How come you can access Blogger and I can't?

She - Been trying for the longest time today.

Tim - Because I'm handsome :D

She - What! What does that have to do with anything!

She - Pffffftt!

She - Like that I should have no problem at all...

Tim - You sure?

She - Hahaha, BITCH!

She - K la, I got to go now. Coffee :D

Tim - Ok. Remember to wipe the floor dry next time.

Tim - Someone might slip and hurt themselves :D

She - SHADDAPPP LA!

Kantoi!

Tim -Who's the new dude?

Tim - Muahahaa!

She - Huh??

She - What do you mean?

Tim - I could have sworn I saw u at mambo dressed in red with some guy.

She - Hahahhahahhahhahaha...

She - Shit! You saw!

She - You even remember the colour I was wearing?

Tim - Yea, the ground was quite wet from all the slobbering.

She - Hmm, sharp.

She - What?! NO!

She - I was not slobbering!!!

Tim - :D

Friday, February 02, 2007

Bla Bla Bleah...

What's been happening? Well, other than the usual coffee sessions, weekend outings with friends and the occasional movie... Pretty much nothing.

Last night I was actually left wondering if I would pay for someone else's fuck up. Am I? I don't really know. Would I really want to know? Honestly, I'm not sure... Then I decided to forget it all, and enjoy the time that is now. The answers will come in due time I guess.

Chinese New Year is coming, which means visiting, red packets and gambling. I've cut down a lot on CNY gambling over the years. But like everyone says, once a year eh?

I'll let the cobwebs and dust collect here for a while more till my next update.

So till then, Happy Chinese New Year peeps!