Cougheeeeeeeeee...

Need coffee... lots of it... It's gonna be a long looooong night.

So much for my usual rest during the weekend. I'm totally burned out and it's only Monday...

Pillars of strength...

And I thought I would find no solace here in which I might truly contemplate the events of the year.

Hope is the denial of reality... Or is it?

There have been many times in my life when I have felt hopeless. It is perhaps the most acute pain I may know, founded in frustration and ventless inner rage.

In my stubborn youth, I believed that I could stand alone, that I was strong enough conquer my inner demons with principles. Arrogance convinced me that by sheer determination, I could conquer helplessness itself. When I look back now, I see quite rarely did I stand alone and rarely did I have to stand alone.

Always there were friends, true and dear, lending me support even when I believed I did not want it, and even when I did not realize they were doing it. These are the companions who gave me the strength to continue. These are the companions who helped fight the helplessness, the rage, the frustration.

These are the friends who let me live...

Inviting trouble...

TestiKel says:
i'd tell you both to get a room, but that would just be inappropriate

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
you'll see me flying out the window

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
actually no

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
im pretty sure i can break down a door

TestiKel says:
i still dont get this crazed phobia you have of her

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
tell her stop touching me then

TestiKel says:
she's a very touchy feely sort of girl

TestiKel says:
what can a man do

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
explain the licking then

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
you saw it

TestiKel says:
she does that to me all the time

TestiKel says:
she just ambushes me for no reason and licks me in the face

TestiKel says:
i walk around the rest of the day smelling like spit

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
i dont warrant all this cute shit she bestows upon me

TestiKel says:
funny, coz when she does it to me it's actually cute

TestiKel says:
lol

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
mine didnt look cute at all k

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
YUCK

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
yes, tell her that

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
YUCK! lolz

TestiKel says:
you're getting worked up over this. relax man

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
u know, after re-reading all this it sounds like we're talking bout someones pet

TestiKel says:
it does, doesnt it

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
very much so

TestiKel says:
at least she isnt infested with ticks

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
OH GOD!

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
for your sake i hope not haha

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
just to let u know, im gonna blog bits of this

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
so tell her not to take offence

TestiKel says:
lol, she knows i love her to bits

TestiKel says:
and yes, she will take offence to this

TestiKel says:
roflrofl

TestiKel says:
actually who cares, post it anyway. i cant be bothered to send her over to your place so she can hit you over the head

TestiKel says:
or lick you, for that matter

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
tell her for putting up with this she can pinch me on the cheek once

TestiKel says:
ok u post the entry up and then i'll tell her that


So yes, you (ya, you know who you are) have one free pinch. No nonsense about it being one loooooooong pinch or anything. Bleh...

Hell, it's about FUCKING time!!!

Starlight and shadows...

The weekend wasn't pleasant. Sure meeting up with a few old friends was good, but the questions they asked... They just brought a river of thoughts that I have been trying to leave behind... Obviously with not much success. Managed to avoid direct answers for most of the questions at least.

I could hardly gather any sleep over the weekend. The recollections plagued me so...

Last week, an old friend I haven't seen for 8 years found me on friendster and we started chatting and catching up. At one point she asked me, "Are you happy?"

After some thought, my reply... "Not exactly".

That was as close to a lie as I could have put it. Because I know I'm definitely not.

So little stars, but shadows everywhere... and I take little comfort in many things now.

Annoy Tim with cuteness day...

JoaN bibbity bobbity boo!!! says:
ur such a teddy bear

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
im not a teddy bear!

JoaN bibbity bobbity boo!!! says:
u are! u so are!!!

JoaN bibbity bobbity boo!!! says:
ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo



*oc3@n* says:
why r u a teddy bear?

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
im not a teddy bear!

*oc3@n* says:
lucky didn't say u were mashi maro

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
omg

*oc3@n* says:
hmm, or a mashi marro..

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
no!

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
i am not anything like a mashi marro!!!

*oc3@n* says:
AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH



rufie... *sigh* says:
yup not a teddy bear. dota doll is more like it =p

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
am not!

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
you just labeled me that!

rufie... *sigh* says:
now now

rufie... *sigh* says:
lets not be in denial

rufie... *sigh* says:
ill make sure ill give you nice matching ribbons

rufie... *sigh* says:
and give you the curly ribbony thingy as well

rufie... *sigh* says:
you want matching bells?

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
you want me to never talk to you again and disown u as a friend?

Cypress Hill compound, you can hear tha sound!

WAY TOO MUCH INFO!!!

What's with the girls today!? Stop telling me these stuff!!!


Someone says:
let me tell u

Someone says:
i had to stick my finger up a patients ass to see if he's got tumours and that his prostate was normal

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
thank goodness lunch time has passed

Someone says:
yup

Someone says:
and then when i took my finger out

Someone says:
i had to look at it to see if there was any residual faeces and blood

Someone says:
oh so pretty

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
WAY TOO MUCH INFO!

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
i hope you washed your hand after

Someone says:
thank goodness i was wearing gloves

Someone says:
and yes of course i washed my hands after that...

TOO MUCH INFO!

A friend was complaining on how much her tongue was hurting...


- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
what happened to you la ?

Friend says:
u bit me!

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
i bit your tongue...?

Friend says:
yeah man..

Friend says:
why you wanna do such a thing?

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
when did i do such a thing?

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
as if i'd be that lucky anyway ha ha ;)

Friend says:
lol..

Friend says:
you evil!

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
i figured im more nice than evil

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
and i prefer the word cunning compared to evil

Friend says:
you villain!

Friend says:
lol

Friend says:
need to go shit before i go meeting!

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
what the...

Friend says:
cya

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
TOO MUCH INFO!

Vending Machine Violence...

*Stephanie says:
we assaulted the vending machine yesterday

*Stephanie says:
cause it refused to give us a kit kat

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
what the

*Stephanie says:
we banged it

*Stephanie says:
we shaked it

*Stephanie says:
we KILLED IT

*Stephanie says:
and it gave us what we wanted

*Stephanie says:
i'd say a job well done

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
sounds like it would have been much easier to just break the glass and help yourselves

*Stephanie says:
HAHAHHAH

*Stephanie says:
ya

*Stephanie says:
well...the glass isnt really glass

*Stephanie says:
it's a mix of glass and plastic

*Stephanie says:
was a lil hard

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
more like... some kinda fortified plastic

*Stephanie says:
arghh who cares

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
lol

*Stephanie says:
we got our kit kat

*Stephanie says:
thats what matters

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
all that for candy

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
i cant imagine what you gals would do to an atm machine during a sale

*Stephanie says:
haha

*Stephanie says:
Bec's fault

*Stephanie says:
she was so cute

*Stephanie says:
she called me whilst i was 3 levels up

*Stephanie says:
and she whispered 'stephhh come downnnnnn my kit kat's stuck' in the cutest baby voice

*Stephanie says:
i was laughing my guts

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
haha

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
it does sound cute haha

*Stephanie says:
she is cute

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
pweeaaassee come and hewlp mieeee

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
lol

*Stephanie says:
YES

*Stephanie says:
THATS EXACTLY HOW SHE SAID IT

*Stephanie says:
HAHA

*Stephanie says:
WELL PUT

*Stephanie says:
exactly like that

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
im trying not to laugh now less my colleagues think im mad

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
so i'll settle for a stupid grin on my face

*Stephanie says:
haha

*Stephanie says:
ur already nuts

*Stephanie says:
so its ok

- t ! m s t [o] n e - says:
er.. thanks